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wishlist…

 this is not really my wishlist. it's just that i find him soo cute! …

I know, this is just mere FANTASY. I realized that it's more fun having fantasies than facing the reality - not to mention, my reality. I wonder, why is it so painful when it comes to facing the REALITY rather than dreaming? Of course, the answer would be too obvious. We could easily let go of these fantasies which we only experience in our minds, by not having hands-on experiences or should I say, by not having those kinesthetic experiences of which we need to use all our senses. Life's been always like that. We needed to dream or kiss our enemies away. However, we also need to face what's laid on our table. Am I reaching to you, my reader? Well, it doesn't matter.  Whether you've understood what I've jot down here or not, it's still your choice if you'd have to search for what I'm really trying to say here. Hmm.. and speaking of choices, CHOICES also hold a big part in our reality. Of whether we choose to live in good moral or not; we choose to FORGIVE or not; we choose to say SORRY or not, it's still our decision and we all know that a SIMPLE CHOICE might change our FATE. 

We've done a lot of changes in year 2006 - may it be on political, environmental, or personal aspects. We've grown enough. We have also LEARNED A LOT. May your year ends well with a peaceful heart to begin with a new life in this incoming 2007. I am here greeting you all a MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Take care, reader!! )    

Love Team.

‘di…‘di naman talaga
Tayo mag-sinta
Pero gusto nila
Kahit ayaw mo
Bagay raw tayo
‘di naman totoo
Mga yakap mo
Pang-eksena lamang ito
‘di nila alam
Na nababaliw na ako sa iyo
‘di ko na yata kaya ‘to
Ang aking lihim na pakay
Ay ang lahat na ito'y gawing tunay

Sana wag mo kong sisihin
Kung ‘di ko kayang pigilin
Sabi mo na mahal mo ko
Ngunit ‘di naman seryoso
Sana ay magkasingkulay
Ang drama at tunay na buhay ko
Ang tanging pag-asa ko
Ay nasa tambalang ito

Si…sinungaling ka
Kapag may tao
Ay nilalambing mo ako
Ngunit pag wala
Ay sumasama
Turing mo sakin
Ay parang hangin
Bitin na bitin
‘di nila alam
Na sa dulo ng tagpo
‘di na patok mga linya mo
Nag-iiba ang iyong asta
Hanggang sa susunod na eksena

Chorus
Sana wag mo kong sisihin
Kung di ko kayang pigilin
Sabi mo na mahal mo ko
Ngunit di naman seryoso
Sana ay magkasingkulay
Ang drama at tunay na buhay ko
Ang tanging pag-asa ko
Ay nasa tambalang ito

Sana'y magkatotoo..

Chorus
Sana wag mo kong sisihin
Kung di ko kayang pigilin
Sabi mo na mahal mo ko
Ngunit di naman seryoso
Sana ay magkasingkulay
Ang drama at tunay na buhay ko
Ang tanging pag-asa ko
Ay nasa tambalang ito

 ~ Itchyworms

One more month…

I've opened my eyes and thank the Lord for a new day.. I stood up, opened the radio and fixed my bed. The usual mornings I have when my classes would start at 2:00 in the afternoon. I would always want to wait for mornings for it brings me happiness to see myself growing (in love, mind and faith).. hehe =) But there's no ordinary joy of waiting for that morning one month away… I've got to wait for that day because my age is getting worn out!

 One more month and i'd be drooling over the year that had passed.. One more month to start a new beginning.. One more month to still continue being sweet (oopsiez=p).. One more month and I'm going to wait for a year and turn into being a lady..  In just ONE MORE MONTH and I'm going to be SEVENTEEN! wheeeeee!! :)  

Yuck. I'm old.. bUt I know my birthday's gonna make me realize that I'm no longer a child.. Cause up to now, I'm still acting like one.. hehehe=) 

Now, you all may ask why I posted an entry… 

Just want to make a post. This day was just so bad, i guess. i just hate to be mislead into something I do not even UNDERSTAND! But another thought came into my mind… To make a post about my incoming bash rather than the anger I feel inside. hehehehe=) so much for that…

still out of reach…

This day would be one of the most memorable days I'd remember in the year 2006..

I woke up complete. Everything on this day went on swiftly without any worries in my head or any heartaches implanted.

Mr. so-so-past gave me a friendster testimonial; mr. puppy crush admitted something just this morning; I saw mr. CF studying @ the bench boulevard; mr. LOVETEAM finally rated me 8.55 on his current status about.. hmm… you know what it is.. and finally, nagkasakay mi ni homer sa jip.

So, there you have it. I was linked to 5 boys in just a semester and a quarter of the 2nd sem.. I realized, it's not exciting to be managing continous heartaches.. I'm STILL not ready for anything. :/

 Homer, yet, bombarded me with a friendly smile the moment I caught his eyes inside the jeepney. It's still kind of awkward but I know I'd get used to it.

 I'm really happy and I wholeheartedly THANK GOD for making my life story wonderful.. There are really substantial thoughts that only the person who is involved in the story knows. heheheh Like the signs you asked from God or the connectivity of every happenings.. I've vividly seen it.. really!

 Now, I'm back to being that ordinary girl, but with much more polishings on the inside and outside..! haha! :D maybe, I'd write a book someday… A nice one! About destiny, God, and Love..  

OFF I SHOULD GO!!

Out of myormy’s world.

"The shades are turning gray and I can't see you anymore…"

This is the very last time that I'm going to cry for him. And I swear
to pit never to have regrets of pulling him out of my life. 

He's worthless.. And I still do not vividly understand the intensity I feel when he's near.

We've talked and cleared the things we want to clarify just a while ago. I told him my part and he told me his part..
 I guess I was crying  the whole time we were taliking over
the phone. Needless to say, I was hurt with one sentence and finally, I
decided to  make my final  decision.

I want to see you suffer so that you would understand what I've felt.

Haven't he thought that I was suffering already? Haven't he known that
I was constantly waiting for him to tell me that he's going back and he
will never gonna leave me again?? Haven't he noticed that, sometimes, I
force myself to pass through their so-called "tambayan" just so I could
see him? Haven't he understood me all the way?

      FORGET ME. AND I'LL ALSO FORGET YOU.

I guess these were the last words that I've told him.  You 
all might  think  I was just  being rude.. But to tell
you the truth, it's really going to be that hard….

—– 12/06/06
I asked mr. moon to give me a sign:if magsakay mi, then that would be the time that I could let go.. and that just happened a while ago. After  3 long  weeks of waiting for that day to happen, na happen ra gyud after sa day nga nag friends mi… It's so relieving. And now, I believe that certain wishes do come true but you still need to undergo different challenges before claiming it… hahay… I'm really really happy.