Out of myormy’s world.

November 29, 2006

"The shades are turning gray and I can't see you anymore…"

This is the very last time that I'm going to cry for him. And I swear
to pit never to have regrets of pulling him out of my life. 

He's worthless.. And I still do not vividly understand the intensity I feel when he's near.

We've talked and cleared the things we want to clarify just a while ago. I told him my part and he told me his part..
 I guess I was crying  the whole time we were taliking over
the phone. Needless to say, I was hurt with one sentence and finally, I
decided to  make my final  decision.

I want to see you suffer so that you would understand what I've felt.

Haven't he thought that I was suffering already? Haven't he known that
I was constantly waiting for him to tell me that he's going back and he
will never gonna leave me again?? Haven't he noticed that, sometimes, I
force myself to pass through their so-called "tambayan" just so I could
see him? Haven't he understood me all the way?

      FORGET ME. AND I'LL ALSO FORGET YOU.

I guess these were the last words that I've told him.  You 
all might  think  I was just  being rude.. But to tell
you the truth, it's really going to be that hard….

—– 12/06/06
I asked mr. moon to give me a sign:if magsakay mi, then that would be the time that I could let go.. and that just happened a while ago. After  3 long  weeks of waiting for that day to happen, na happen ra gyud after sa day nga nag friends mi… It's so relieving. And now, I believe that certain wishes do come true but you still need to undergo different challenges before claiming it… hahay… I'm really really happy.